Just Breath

Do you ever feel like everything is happening to you at once?

Like for instance your car breaks down the day that you get a promotion at your job, and it’s the same day that you dyed you hair the wrong color and gave yourself a very sudden very bad manicure. Perhaps its just part of life but lately it feels as though everything is happening without a breath. Our dog has cancer which has manifest as a very large, very hard lump, right next to his bottom. Today he is going under the knife to have it removed. All of my friends are telling me that he is circling the drain that he only has a few months left to live so I should enjoy him. It's as if they have already begun planning his funeral, they gave up on him so quickly, all I had to do was say cancer and they acted as though the dog sitting right next to them was dead. Needless to say I think that they are all mad and that our dog will bounce back and go on living.
Still I have fallen prey to the “what if” game. You know the one I mean, what if he dies while they are in surgery, what if it has spread throughout his body and there is no helping him, blah blah blah. I am officially not a fan of the “what if” game. Perhaps my life is not happening all at once, perhaps it is simply major events back to back, but than again who knows anymore.

It's raining outside, last week was rough and throughout my tornado of a week I kept wishing, hoping and even praying for rain or snow anything but the sun. This morning I read that it is suppose to rain all week and I can't help but wonder if the powers that be got my message a bit late. But than I have to laugh at myself for once again believing in the powers that be, and than I have to laugh at their tardiness. Either way it’s nice for my message to be heard and to have the atmosphere reflect your insides. I think it helps somehow.

My dog will get better, I know it, he has to, my family needs him too much for anything serious to happen. He is too precious for them to take him away.